The Bedrest

I just couldn't resist....NO I am not on bedrest! And that's the point! No reason to worry, no gossip needed. Nothing happening here, folks.

Major celebration this week. After my doctor's appointments I came to this crazy realization....wait a second! The docs are not going to stop my labor IF it happens from now forward. Which means....NO bedrest. NO pre-babies extended hospital stay, even if I develop preclampsia or something like that. They will just deliver the babies at that point. In short - I made it! I actually made it! Bedrest? No sir. No ma'am. Not this twin momma!

I cannot even count the number of people who have told me this entire pregnancy that they are expecting bedrest or early delivery. Well....early delivery could certainly still happen. 2 weeks and counting. But the bedrest concern is gone. How incredible is that!!??!! What a tremendous relief and just a blessing. Again, one of those things that I feel God is just saying, "See, didn't you all trust me!" So very thankful.

And here we are. I left work Friday with less than 30 emails in my inbox. Holy cow that in itself is a crazy thing. And it's 8pm on Saturday night...another weekend day to go and I will officially be starting my LAST week of work as a mommy of 1. Wow. Also shocked that I made it this long working too! Granted, I've been significantly reducing my workload and work day itself, coming home mid-day to work from home with my feet up and in comfortable clothes. Just taking 30 minutes to lay down right when I get home mid-day is giving me the energy and strength to finish working for the day. A huge relief and will pay off for sure when I am able to spend the whole 12 weeks at home with my babies. Still totally insane that next week is the last week in October and I am going to (probably!) finish out the week working and make it to Friday. Even though I'm the one who chose that date to be done, it still seemed like such an impossible goal 2-3 months ago. And it is within my grasp now!

Then, of course, we have the craziest part of all this - In 2 weeks I am going to have two babies! Anyone else really feeling the reality of this besides me? I mean, this whole pregnancy we've been wanting to "make it." Wanting these babies to be healthy. Wanting just another week. Wanting low risk, no complications, etc. And now...here we are. The babies are truly going to be FINE now. And...that means...we are going to be bringing home two newborn baby boys. AHHHH!!! Such a funny thing to think about.

In my head I've officially moved from the concern about being on bedrest or the babies being born too early....and now I'm fully aware of the things to come: Surgery. Two Babies! Recovery. (UGH!) Two Babies! Diaper Duty. Two Babies! Breastfeeding. Two Babies! Big Brother Adjustment. Two Babies! Visitors at Home. Two Babies! Sleep? HAHA. Two BABIES!

Can you guess where my head has been? TWO BABIES. This is real. This is happening. God has brought us this far and now here we are onto the "most" challenging part.....trusting that somehow, someway, we are going to manage going from a family of 3 to 5 in a matter of minutes. This is our reality, not just a prayer. Not just a hope and wish. We REALLY are going to have two babies in two weeks. I know you may be thinking, "Duh Carrie, you are having two babies - where have you been?" But it is true. I have been so focused on making it this far that I didn't always allow myself to truly ponder the actual REALITY of bringing home two newborn baby boys.

My bags are packed. Diaper bag is ready. The house & baby gear are assembled & prepped. We are completely ready. I pulled some sample twin charts out again today and thought to myself that I really need to create one I'll use and print them out....because before I know it we will be HOME with TWO BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And needing a feeding schedule and diaper mess tracking and so much more...added to the fun fact that they will be IDENTICAL so we will still need to make sure to tell them apart somehow. (Green nail polish for Gabe's toe is already packed in my bag - thank you April!)

I feel like we need carnival theme music playing here....let the circus commence!