The Questions

Well it has started. A never ending stream of questions. We informed the family (lots of laughing and shock of course) and we shared the news with bosses and a few coworkers. All in all, the responses have been funny and very encouraging. I think everyone is so happy for us....and at the same time so happy it is NOT them. HAHA. Of course now start the questions. We have so many things to decide and not a single clue what to do.

• What do we do about a car to fit our new family?


• How are we going to fit 2 cribs in the small extra bedroom?


• What do we really need and what can we get away with just ONE of?


• Do we opt for travel system car seats or stationary ones?


• How in the world are we going to pay for daycare considering it looks to be about $400 A WEEK with three kiddos under 4 years old? O.M.G. Seriously?


• Should we just get a nanny?

Ben's favorite phrase has been, "This is a game changer." So true. Everything we thought we knew and plans we had and reasons why we made the decisions we've made are all thrown out the window. It's truly a whole new game.

Not gonna lie, I'm really having a hard time getting my "baby joy" back. I had it strong through Sunday. Super nervous Monday and then the bombshell....I really truly do want to be happy and overjoyed with this news. Just trying to channel my shock into something productive, making plans and getting organized, so that I can start to really enjoy being pregnant with two awesome little ones. Still can hardly believe it.

We went for a short walk tonight while Sam was at church. I was reminded of a Bible study I did before I knew for real what we were getting into. I wrote down something like, "Why do we complain when we ask for rain and we get a storm? Don't we know that sometimes blessings come with challenges? They are still blessings!" I really need to remind myself of this when I start stressing about the tiny details.....or the bigger concerns like PLEASE GOD HELP ME CARRY THESE BABIES HEALTHY AND AS LONG AS POSSIBLE!!!

The fact is that in the last five years, we've been told that with some fertility issues kids may not happen for us, or it just may take years, or may be very difficult without "assistance." Amazing that God gave us Samuel totally natural without fertility drugs, and then again this time, even with a risk of NEVER getting pregnant again, God blesses us with two all on His own, without any fertility help at all. Wow. What do you say to that but, "Thank you." And, of course, laugh a little at God's sense of humor.